This story was sent to me by a Quantum Energy Integration program participant on January 15, 2014. This lady had an amazing insight and I have been given permission to share it.
I went to a workshop where the female speaker was identified as being an adult with Aspergers. At the beginning of her talk, I immediately became anxious and started to experience a vibration like nails on a chalkboard! I was surprised by my reaction as everyone else in the room apparently loved her and they were laughing and obviously thought she was great! But in staying with the truth of my experience, I could have run for the door! So, I went into my usual deep breathing and I stayed with the sensations in my body and waited to see what could come about for me.
Having purchased the meditation CD’s from WEL-Systems, I remember engaging in the Being of Light meditation on the day before I attended the Autism/Aspergers workshop and noticed a ball of energy that went down the right side of my back. I decided to stay with it and to keep breathing and to trust my body to process whatever was happening in my body.
Now, the pain that I was experiencing in response to the Aspergers speaker started to increase in my upper back. It felt like a ping pong ball of energy was happening inside of me. Finally, I got up and walked to the back of the room as this experience has never happened to me before (or at least I was aware if it had happened before). After about 15 minutes, I went back to my seat.
The feeling continued and it was like a boing, boing, boing inside of me and so I started doodling spirals all over my paper and this helped me to get to the end of the session. I left and went home and the pain continued in my back. The boing energy continued on and when I read your comments to me, Diane, small flashes or sparks like fireworks started all over my back and I could feel the energy coming out through my hands. I shared your response to my text out loud with my husband and I immediately thought of a small boy that I knew who was diagnosed with autism. Then this insight came to me!
I totally get this young boy! I am totally in tune with him! His father tried to explain that he was different and started to tell me about his autism, but I said, "No, I am totally fine with how he is. There’s no need to explain."
As I remembered this encounter, I had a few tears and as the energy cleared out, I knew it wasn’t a sadness that I felt but a happiness because I knew the boy was free and I could connect with his energy. So then an image of the speaker from the workshop flashed before me and I could see us standing side by side with spirals of colour coming out from the top of our heads going up into the universe!
It was then that I realized that the people who are labelled as ADHD or ADD or Autistic or Aspergers are NOT abnormal. They are reflecting back to us, our need to be free-thinkers, free-feelers, the need to go with the flow and to live with no boundaries. It is the current rigid systems around us that are abnormal and over-controlling. So, both the young boy labelled as Autistic and the speaker diagnosed with Aspergers helped me to connect with my own inner truth and with my deep desire to be free!
Although this insight is only one piece of my burgeoning awareness of mySELF, I am happy to know that my huge energy, my huge being need not be contained! And on that note, I had a good sleep!
Thanks so much for sharing your experience with us! And as you all know, the emerging authentic self is just that….continually emerging….so enjoy the journey!